Friday, July 15, 2011

Conclusion

So now I am in the very last period, days or hours of my pregnancy. No one knows and no one can speculate. I definitely call these last couple of days a roller coaster trip, with a lot of contractions one day and less the next, a lot of birth signs one hour and the next as calm as a summer evening. Nothing makes sense, but still it all does somehow. Because true biological miracles wouldn't be as magical without this absolut swimming in the unknown. Acceptance, tolerance and patience are tested every day and I really think that it's part of the big development that will occur and that is meant to take place during this trip.
All mothers who have been in my situation know exactly what I am talking about. You try to not look for signs, but still the only thing in your mind is "Is this it? Is it happening anytime soon? Is this normal?" because you are SO aware of your own body that every little change in the normality is a sign that you know leads you one step closer to the grand finale. How can it not be nerve wrecking being so close to that kind of truth?
My respect for mothers has increased massivly during this pregnancy and I've learned to be even more humble towards the incredible and strong female gender.

This past week has been all about trying to hold little A inside of me until M is arriving for a longer period, which is today. I have been glued in front of the television with episode after episode of Dexter, Six feet Under and so on, just to stay calm and make him stay another day in my warm kangeroo enviroment and wait for his father to finish everything at work instead of being forced to take an emergency ticket directly to the delivery. And I've seem to have succeeded, which is a blessing.
But now we have a couple of weeks together to get through this chaotic, amazing and life changing situation and I am more than ready to receive all the pain, work with it and experience this war of birth reality that all mothers have lived through in one way or another and capture and carry as a treasure for the rest of their life in their own unique and personal way. But it is indeed a surreal feeling when I think about the fact that I am counting the last days with this belly. My intuition says that in less then a couple of days, I will have a version of my own body back and instead have a new little body in my arms. Wow, wow, wow ...

16 comments:

  1. Rätt inställning! En förlossning är verkligen en mix av skräck och förtjusning. Efteråt är man lycklig för vad man har fått såklart. Men också över vad man har åstadkommit. En på många sätt häftig upplevelse om man går in i det med den inställning du har. Själv ska jag ordna ettårskalas för vår lille pojke på onsdag. Varmt lycka till! / Johanna

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  2. Gud vad bra du skriver och vad jordnära du känns! lycka till nu! Hanna

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  3. Lykke til med fødselen Stina, det er en utrolig flott og sterk opplevelse å få barn!

    Anne fra Norge

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  4. You look ravishingly!!! And once again I wish you all the best for the forthcoming time. ♥ Beatrice from Germany

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  5. All the best for your delivery and what a beautiful blouse !

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  6. Stina, I wish you all the best!!!

    Polly

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  7. Lycka till, Stina! Det kommer att bli fantastiskt, hur förlossningen än blir är det sammanfattningen efteråt. / Hanna

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  8. You keep looking for signs and you ask yourself now? now? now?
    But when THE MOMENT comes you don't ask any questions; You just now.

    And you look amazing while waiting, by the way.

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  9. Lycka till och du ser så fin och fräsch ut, vad snyggt det är med prickigt, alltid gillat det och snygg kombination. Och skönt när lillen är i famnen snart:-)

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  10. I'm very excited for you, Stina. You are going to be a great mom.

    Sending you warm wishes and blessings from Canada

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  11. Spännande!! Kan ju bli närsomhelst nu... En helt annan sak. Jag undrar vilka öppettider din fotoutställning har? Kostar den inträde, och i så fall vad? Tack!

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  12. exciting ...
    I wish you a good delivery and best wishes to your new baby
    xo nari
    http://themagicstyle-by-nari.blogspot.com/

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  13. Så spännande Stina!!! Önskar dig all lycka med förlossningen. Tänk att ert effterlängtade lilla barn snart är i era armar.

    kramar

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  14. Hei Stina! Lykke til på den spennende reisen du har foran deg! Jeg lurer på hvor du har kjøpt gardinene i stua? Jeg er på utkikk etter den type gardiner og jeg hadde blitt kjempeglad for svar. Hilsen Thina.

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  15. Anonym: 10-19 är fotoutställningen öppen, när vi hade Vernissaget var all möbler borttagna runtom men nu har man även förelsäningar etc där de sitter. Det är bara att kika. Inget kostnad alls! Välkommen!

    Everyone: Thank you so much for the kind words!

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  16. Anonym: På Boheme på Östermalm, sedan använde jag My Window som sydde dem till mig, monterade och hängde tyngder i dem. Extremt dyra måste jag varna för men mycket fina.

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