Friday, February 15, 2013
Like always, this pregnancy wasn't really planned and came as a small chock for me, who had decided to wait a year until I hoped to be pregnant again. I wanted some balance first and already felt quite drained from the move, our life and just motherhood in average. But destiny wanted something else and now I'm of course very happy to have this wonderful gift again of carrying a child that will be another part of this family. But like always my pregnancies are not easy and I've felt horrible in this one also just as I did with Alexis'. So extremely nauseous, vomiting and I have absolutely no energy.
This time it also felt so extremely big, being pregnant again when we already have a small toddler! How will I/we manage? So it's good that the human rase is pregnant nine month, I already starting to adjust to all of this and can't wait to see who is inside of me, that will be another gift to us all but I do feel some worried feelings also I can assure you of. Now I and we know how enormous much work that lays behind raising a child and being a parent. I loved it from the start and it's still the most beautiful thing ever happened to me, but it's hard work and that sort of work never, ever stops.
My belly, just like with Alexis popped out very early and I already have put on the weight I had when I was more then half way with Alexis. It's interesting to see how much more "pregnant" one is with the second one so close!
So now you know why I've been totally away from everything and why my soul, mind and heart is a little bit confused.
Thank you for all support though, reading all of your warm, thoughtful and life sharing comments gives me, and so many other so much! Thank you!