Friday, August 30, 2013
The labours started late Sunday night as I've wrote before and I felt directly that something was going on when we went to bed. M had been sleeping with Alexis since he arrived for me to get some better nights, but we did not really get that lovely thought into practise because already at 1.30am in the morning, I woke him up with painful labours and said that It was all starting. We decided to wait a little bit more and we both tried to get some more sleep but at 5am in the morning I just could not take it anymore, I was in very painful labours.
So we droped Alexis off at my parents and went to the hospital and there I was already open 6 cm and everything else, the epidural etc, just decided to work on me this time, mainly because of a very skilled anaesthetic doctor I guess. The midwife was excellent and everyone around and at lunchtime this little person came out with me screaming out to the world in pain like a cave woman and with six pushes that felt like they came from the survival of mother earth. But it was so amazing! I was there, present, felt every little step in Leons arrival and had total control over everything that was happening. And at the last push, were I felt the whole body coming out of my body and being lifted up, all wet and warm and screaming on my body ... well, I was ready to do it all again. It was so beautiful, powerful, extraordinary - the female strength in it's absolute most mind-blowing state of using itself to create life. If that is not something, then nothing is. It's something I wish all human being would go through at least one time in their life to understand what we are, as biological creatures, made to do.
Leon and me stayed one night at the hospital and then we went home. My parents, Lissie and Alexis came already the same day and saw this new family member from the very first start. Last time I had problem walking for almost eight weeks and I had severe pain for a very long time afterwards, but this time I just feel so much better. Of course the body is in pain here and there, a delivery of a child have taken place, but not close to last time. I feel fit for fight immediately which is very good because Alexis demands me just as usual if not more.
The first two days was not easy with him and when he realised that this little baby was following us home, he just went crazy. Time will definitely be on our side in this purpose and the focus needs to be on Alexis as much as possible for him to slowly getting use to this new setup and his little brother. Today I can already see a difference though but since Alexis is so young and Leon so small, we can't leave them together for one second and Leon is so fragile and obviously it's impossible for Alexis to understand that when he jumps on me, who is breast-feeding Leon for an example and wants a hug, he can hurt Leon in a very dangerous way. Situations like that is very hard I find but we live and learn every day.