Wednesday, November 6, 2013

My life

Some days I am IN LOVE with my life, enjoy it so much - others not as much. Frustrations goes hand in hand with hard, strong, passionate love for the children, all memorable moments we share together and to see their relationship develop and how both grow older. But since I'm at home with both of them (I do have a  nanny for Alexis a couple of hours in the week, but after lunch, I'm alone with both of them) it can be very tiring, especially like now, when our nanny is away and both of the children are sick.
But it's been amazing, this journey that i've done, being a full time mother for quite some time now and also going from one child to two in a short amount of time.
Suddenly Alexis is not a little baby, but a young little boy with feelings, a stubborn will and his own fascinating personality. It's so remarkable to follow his development, even though the reality not always is filled with roses and we have, like with all children, to guide and correct him all the time which is harder then anyone can ever believe that has not gone through the same experience. He is a remarkable little person, mostly so kind, smart and helpful, but can also drive me insane. The typical "terrible two"tantrums comes every day and we're both trying to find way to handle them and now, finally, I see that we understand them better, both of us.
But this is my life. Pure, honest and simple. Ten percent at most to myself and all the rest to the children and to the family. It's the toughest job I've ever laid my hands on, yet the one that I love beyond words and that comes with so many roller coster moments where happiness can switch to all weird tough feelings in a moment.
I can't wait for Alexis to start kindergarden (dagis) in Feb-Mars, both him and I needs it. Then next autumn, i will come back to work a bit and hopefully take on some interesting project I've been longing to do but have had nor energy nor time to do.

Picture cavalcade: 1. Today I deserved this cake from the best place - Sprüngli, 2. a sick little Alexis snuggling up in my bed, 3. a sick little chubby Leon in close up, 4. "a table"- lunch for Alexis, 5. we spend a lot of time there, 6. Alexis looks at Finding Nemo, his focus can reach to approximately 20min, 7. Kaninen (the rabbit) is always with Alexis and therefor he needs regular disinfection bath (scchhhhh), 8. Leon again, 9. a little part of me, 10. my beautiful, from inside out - boys. The meaning of life.


27 comments:

  1. Oh Stina, I totally agree with all you wrote as I am in a similar stage of life (except I have one boy...for now...)
    The days are so filled with happiness, love and joy, but then there are certain things that come up ( like a sickness, or a bad attitude, or just a bad mood ) that lay their shadows over....but this is life and as long as those are ''small'' things that just need a little time to pass, nothing bothers me really! As you said : we live the meaning of life by being mothers!

    Hugs
    Mel

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  2. So fantastic puctures of your two little loves. A is becoming really really beautiful and I can almost live what your are doing, things of life, cooking, washing, taking care of your babies, sorry Alexis!
    The real life and even with that you stay and remain so feminine and pretty bravo Stina you are very strong in fact.
    Nevertheless to say that I have the same set of table than you!!
    The last picture is really touching, really sweet and very happy little boys. We feel love.
    Big hugs beautiful mother of 2 beautiful sons.
    Uta

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  3. It was an excellent idea to show Alexis after Leon yesterday, with all compliments he received,
    You are sensitive that you felt to show your second little love as well, this is for all these things that I appreciate you so much, I appreciate your intelligence of heart as well as your beauty and sense of fashion!
    Uta

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  4. Why haven't Alex start kindergarden earlier? (I know it is super expensive I live in Belgium) but the finance seems not to be a problem for you guys (sorry I know that you don't want to discuss it) But don't you think it's important for Alexis to meet other kids on a regular basis? It must come more or less as shock for him to start then in feb/mars?

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  5. Because Stina and his family will leave in January Zurich!!
    Uta

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  6. Yea I know that Uta. What I understand as a reader they have been living in Zurich for a while right.. 2 years or something.. So my question was, why did they choose to not put Alex in daycare in Zurich earlier? Maybe Stina can answer for herself or maybe she don't want to answer the question at all, that's fine too.....

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  7. Felicidades es usted una gran madre y una gran mujer.fantásticas fotos de los niños....!!!adorables!¡¡ Saludos desde España.Isabel.

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  8. your little boys are adorable, hope they are not sick for long.

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  9. You have such a brilliant way of capturing moments in your photos, that so little needs to be said! You boys look so cozy and warm in the beautiful environment you've created for them. I know how trying some days can be. My boys are 10 and 3. There are some days so fabulous they take your breath away, and some days are a little less than fabulous, but we do our best :) I think it's wonderful you kept Alexis home with you as long as you did... but now he's ready for Kindergarten and he will love it I'm sure, and it will make your time together all the more special!

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  10. two little boys in a small apartment without grandma's it's so stressful, but in future you have two little boys, they can play together and it will be so easy and funny.

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  11. Wonderful photos of your beautiful little boys. I love the last one. I had also two boys and my husband and I raised them without the help of grandparents and nannies. I have a university degree and loved my profession, but this often very exhausting time with my beloved children was the best time of my life (so far) ;-). Hugs B.

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  12. Puh ja, två-årsåldern är inte alltid så kul. Det är ju precis två år mellan Felix och Elvira så jag förstår precis vad du går igenom. Nu när Lilly kom och de andra var lite äldre går allt så mycket enklare. Men kämpa på, det blir bättre :) . Hoppas du får en härlig dag och att killarna kryar på sig snabbt. Galet söta är de också. kram kram Linda

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  13. Well, I think it is clear from Stina's regular photos that Alexis does regularly mix with other children. He also does a lot of travelling to different countries and sees many different people of different nationalities. I personally think this is a very sound basis for a young child's development. Clearly at some point both mother and son are ready for nursery care !

    These are lovely photos. Thank-you for this blog, I don't comment often but I enjoy reading. By the way, I think you are correct in not answering questions about money which must have become pretty tedious by now. I'm amazed people ask these sorts of questions. All the best. x

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  14. Hello Stina, where will you spend christmas and new year this time around? I just now realized that it's not so far away when I walked passed a store with almost full christmas decoration display...
    xoxo

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  15. This kind of cavalcade is so great, thank you for sharing with us! You have a great sense of taking beautiful photos, but we can all understand that it's alot easier with two such gorgeous "objects" to picture. Hope they are both feeling better soon :) xx J

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  16. Considering how blessed some people say you are, you really complain too much!

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    1. Where do you see the complaints? Furthermore, why to torture yourself reading it...? Just change the blog you follow - how does that appeal to you...?

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  17. I think it is amazing the way you manage to take care of the family, yourself, cook great food and look after your home. And it sounds superficial, but I can not understand how you manage to look so great still while you have both kids. For me, I simply don't manage it all. What is the secret?
    Can you tell us a bit about your routines with both kids? Do you ever feel irritated that M's job takes up so much of his time?

    I hope you will get help from a nanny so that you can sleep a little bit.

    I can not almost take those days when we are all home.. time goes so slowely and my 2-year old goes crazy.

    You said earlier that you would write what you learned about handling the terrible two's and the tantrums... Look forward to that!

    Stort tack för att du delar med dig av ditt liv!

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  18. OK STINA! merci... love the constellation of your daily life sublimated by your shooting. When will you tell your dear followers about your definitive homestay?our Christmas present?? Cath

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  19. I think it's great to have kids close in age, but sometimes you forget that the maternity leave becomes soooooooo long then, and you're basically out of the professional sphere of your life for a long long time.

    I really needed to go back to work in between kids, even if I loved the idea of having two closely together (also, kind of want to get it over with). I could not be away from work for three years, it would drive me mad. I was home for 7 months, then my husband and I worked 50% each for 3-4 months, and then he was at home full-time for 6 months while I was back at work. It was a good way of keeping me sane, but still feel that I had adequate time with my daughter. And now that she's two, I've been back at work for over a year and slowly getting ready to try for a second child. Yikes!!!

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  20. Great pictures - the boys look so cute together! Myself I've got a very big gap between the kids, but I can imagine how tiring it must be to take care of two small guys. I've got a 4-year-old son and sometimes it feels like too much with just one...Still, in a short period of time they'll be playing and taking care of each other, which is what I'm missing, because my older son is way too big to play with his younger brother. So everything has its pros and cons and I think that eventually you're going to get a really great family situation.

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  21. oh howo i share your emotions - i have stayed 6 months at home when the second child was born. Then i decided to get back to work part time - and alough the work is demanding, i can relax there, in a way that I can spend MY time according to MY plan. And that makes me more relaxed at home. Wishing your kids to get well soon!

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  22. You are SuperWoman! / Anette

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  23. Hej jag vet ej hur ditt vardagliga liv ser ut men jag har 2 barn jag alltid tagit hand om själv samt hem o matlagning med lite hjälp av min man som dock jobbar mycket.

    har aldrig haft en nanny eller barnflicka är en del av livet tycker jag.De åren går så fort ta vara på dem.
    Samt ha som passar in i erat liv allas liv ser olika ut. Lycka till
    Evelyn

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  24. Very nice and deep thoughts, wonderful to read! And oh my, Alexis is so you and Leon is so M!

    Take care,
    Baya

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  25. Thank you for this lovely entry! As usual, your pictures are absolutely beautiful. They bring out the beauty in everyday life.
    Hugs from Ingrid!
    p.s Leon is adorable, and Alexis is becoming quite handsome ;)

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  26. This is wonderful!!! I love your blog; it's so empowering and real! Do you mind if I share the bunny in a pot picture on my blog? URL is deuxpivoines.tumblr.com. Thanks so much!

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