Thursday, March 13, 2014

WORDS

Only two more days until my man is back in Sthlm and we're all reunited again. Another week with me and the children 24/7, sickness, nights ... the days are sometimes e x t r e m e l y long and It's not always easy to know how to fill them so they fit both my energetic toddler - and little Leon. (Not to mention me, who is not the fondest of just hanging in parks all day long I've realised.)

I'm sending thoughts to all elder people who are all by them self every day, all year through. Lonely ... I really feel for them, I can almost touch how it must be to not have anyone, to breath the loneliness as a brutal day to day reality. When I was younger and worked in the hospital, I saw it so often. Really lonely people, without anyone. I feel so blessed for everything in my life. Especially my family and friends. Even though I appreciate to be lonely, it's always the chosen loneliness that is so liberating and up-lifting. But the opposite, the dark one, must be horrible.
It should be forbidden not to be taken cared of when growing older (if you were a nice person when being younger of course, you get what you give). I hope we're all doing the Italian style and living in a enormous house and have grandparents, bambinos, dogs, well cooked food, wine and just a lot of happiness when our families grow older and the family that we're creating. That would be pure happiness and life fullness as pure as it can be. I actually think that's how nature planed it.

For this reason I'm trying to think about how blessed I am, having the possibility to be at home with my children even if it's been the hardest job in my life. Because the same way, I LOVE it so much. We share an enormous amount of happiness together at home. I mean, I laugh, pure and raw laughing about thirty times per day because of those two little monsters (and probably would like to scream out loud, just as many times). So even if I feel so tired, exhausted, sometimes frustrated and like I'm being captured in a fish bowl and can't breath - most of the time I just look around and smile for the simple fact that THIS is life. Chaotic, intensive, dirty, developing, loving and warm. And this is what will change you forever. I know what it is to do this journey.

But life is always in motion and soon there will be big changes in our family for sure. Until then I'm counting the days until our helping lady is arriving. I've prepared her room all lovely and for now, it's the cosiest place in the house (except the children's each room who are just to die for). I would love it to be a Yoga and Pilates room in the future when we're redone some more spaces. But she is landing on Sunday and on Monday Alexis starts kindergarden so hopefully my life will take a 360° turn in about two weeks when everything is settled and the routines are going well and strong!
At the moment I literally have NO time. So again, apologise for all emails, even the "north of the city"emails you guys sent out so kindly, but honestly, I hardly have time to eat lunch so emails have a low priority at the moment!

Talk soon!

(my new favourite silk pants: Greta/here, cashmere sweater: SoftGoat, coat: Zara, shades: Prada & bag: Hermès)

41 comments:

  1. it is no problem for you, to live with a foreign person together? Or is she an au pair?

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    1. I've done Skype interviews with here but still, we're all foreigners to each others from the beginning! I hope she will be like our helping Lady in Zürich, she became a dear person in mine and the boys life!

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    2. Of course it's a risk, but what wouldn't life be without taking some risks? If it doesn't work, we have to send her home and replace her. But I think it will be perfect! Very good for both of us!

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    3. Many of my friends have or have had a nanny from Philippines ( who have lived in their house) and they have been very satisfied about their nannies. Is yours from there too? I would like to have one too; if we would just live in some country more than half year...

      I was very lonely first year when I moved to my husband country and girls were about same age as your sons now.(they have one year age difference, sometimes people think they are twins;) My parents-in law lived next to us but my mother-in law was too shy in beginning to ask if she can help because I'm "strong and independent northern woman" and I was too shy to ask help because I wouldn't ask it in my home country neither..and you know, nobody didn't speak English really....Than we talked once and everything changed:). I can really understand how you feel alone with too small boys, all best wishes for you!

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  2. That quote is just so true! Love it.

    Have a nice week-end dear.

    -Astridur

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  3. Jag älskar din inställning och att få ta del av dina tankar. Fantastiskt! Kram

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    1. Thank you for reading and commenting!

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  4. Tredje gången gillt! Vilket märke är det på din klocka med svart läderarmband? Vänligen, An

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  5. First of all, I have to say you look amazing! Love your outfit.

    Loved the quote and it is so true, some people will never get it, so why waste time on them? I love how humble you are and I believe it is very important to be aware of how lucky we are to live in Scandinavia. We have so much to be thankful for and we are truly blessed to get to live our life just as we please. Especially with everything happening in Krim and Russia, it reminds me how lucky I am that I am able to do whatever I want and live my life according to how I want it.

    I love reading your thoughts and follow your blog. You always post such inspiring outfits and it is such a pleasure that we get to have a sneak peak into your world. Thank you.

    Have a fabulous weekend!

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    1. I know, Russia and Ukraine, it feels like countries from the beginning of the 18th century and we should all be grateful to live in parts of the world where we are free.

      Thank you dearly for the comment!

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  6. Again you look fantastic !!! The colour of your coat is just perfect ... très chic

    I wanted to ask what's your nanny nationality and which language with she speak with the boys? I wish you all the best !! Our lady is not a live in, (pls share your thoughts how that works out.. is it weird having someone else in the house?) but comes a couple of hours every day. She is the kindest, sweetest and simply amazing with children and helping out with the house.

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    1. She is from Thailand and will speak English with the kids. The one we had in Zürich was from Philippines and she was the best, but it was almost impossible to get someone from Philippines to Sweden for some reason. Thailand was much easier and they are normally very kind, warm and lovely with children so I hope that will be the case!

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    2. Hej Stina,
      Vet du om din fd barnflicka i Zurich letar efter nytt jobb?
      Kram
      Carin

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  7. Wonderful quote and wonderful outfit!

    Do you ever wear Twilly's on the handles of your Birkin? I think i haven't seen them on your bag.. But on your Kelly in the past!? I like them on my Birkin and i would love to see how you style them... as an inspiration, you know ;)

    I know i asked that question before - but can't remember your answer... What type of leather is your black Birkin?

    Thank you and have a nice weekend!
    Rebecca S.

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    1. Hi dear Rebecca,

      I do, sometimes. But I don't like when i feel too preppy or too pretty if you know what I mean. I wish I had more time to wear my Birkins and Kellys, but it's hard with a pram and two small children.

      Epsom is the leather.

      Thank you,
      stina

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  8. What a lovely post Stina, I'm on my own an awful lot too, most of time it's ok but sometimes it really hurts to be alone, then I envy those of you with children and extended families, it's just me and hubs who leaves early/comes home late and my lovely 90 year old mum who amazingly still lives on her own, and does everything for herself. It must be great to have full house.

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    1. T, I love your blog !!!!

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    2. Me too, love love love Tabitha's blog!

      MK

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    3. Dear Tabitha,

      I'm sure you have lots of friends and maybe their children to love and care for. What a wonderful thing to have your mother alive! Most people lose them early so you are blessed in that way!
      Hugs,
      stina

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  9. Åh vad jag känner igen mig! Har varit hemma med barn länge nu och det märks på tålamodet. Man längtar ut, efter vuxenkontakt och att få vara sitt gamla jag, om än för bara ett par timmar. Men samtidigt skattar man sig lycklig över att ha fått två friska barn och en liten familj. Dock är det bra att det pratas lite mer öppet om mammalivets vedermödor. Allt är liksom inte bebismys.. Lycka till!!

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    1. Ändå blir så många som inte har barn ifrågasätta.....

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    2. Yes! I think it's important to highlight both the beautiful things about having children, but it's not a piece of cake. It takes everything from you even though it gives you the world back.

      Stay strong!!!!

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  10. How I recognize myself in what you describe! If life wasn't interesting enough before, the ups and downs of having children really makes it interesting now! /A.

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  11. All the best Stina you're doing a fabulous job not just to your family but your followers as well!We really wish you well...

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  12. I COMPLETELY agree with Kdot. Wonderful women for all. Nothing more to add.
    Is it possble that the coat, so nice is from Zara? To be a little bit superficial...?.
    Big hugs. Uta

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    1. Thank you Dear Uta!

      Yes, it's from Sarah a couple of month ago! I almost didn't want it to be Zara, wished it was MaxMara or something so not everyone would have it ... But it's Zara and I love it!

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  13. Tabitha such a beau





    Tabitha, such a pretty girl like you will soon be with someone you look a really lovely person following your nice comments and your small picture.
    Sorry Stina to utilize your blog again. Last time promise!
    Uta

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  14. It's true than the Philippines are fantastic most of the time but Thai's women also. All Asian in fact.

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    1. Yes, they are hard workers, kind, respectful, lovely with children and cook fantastic! I'm very happy!!! I'll try to give her life as much back!

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  15. Loneliness was part of the reason that I went back to work, when the kids are past really needing you, I am not sure that you don't fell it all the stronger. But then there are some horrible office politics and scheming and I think why am I bothering with this? But the good people always outnumber the calculating ones, I have to remember that.

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    1. Ha, ha ha you talk like my man. Sometimes he calls me and like, why the %&€%% do I bother with this when I can be home with you!

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  16. What a wonderful, heart-felt post full of wisdom. You should also feel blessed for being able to really understand what the true value and meaning of life and family is, Stina (not everyone does, I've come to realize).
    With regard to being lonely in life with noone around, I feel the same way as you do and really sympathize with all those people for whom this is the reality.
    And as for hectic , stressful every-day life with two small children - I understand you completely and feel the same way. Stressful as it is, exhausting and often frustrating, it is also such a blessing that I am thankful for what I have every single day. Plus having our wonderful families living so close nearby, along with all our friends - what a blessing indeed. We just came back from a 5-hour walk and dining in the city, so full of spring spirit and cheer, and will be visiting our parents tonight and my in-laws tomorrow for some fine dining and happy times - I mean, what else does one really need, if you can't appreciate those small experiences of every-day life. (And being busy at work, stressful as it is having two small ones, is also something I've come to appreciate more now, just how I have learnt to be focused and to do not 100% but 1000% more things now.). I guess that's what makes women special - being mothers, ladies, professionals, chefs!!, individuals! :-)
    Well, that's one long post from me....but all in all, wish you a great start with kindergarten and hope A. accommodates well there, I know how difficult the beginnings usually are for those small angels.

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    1. Thank you for this lovely comment! I agree with it all and it seems like you are truly blessed! You managed to get most things in life of true value. Since I many times you get what you focus on, you've must have done the right thing! Lots of hugs for that!

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  17. its not only elderly people who are lonely, I am lonely and I am only 24 years old, I know several girls in my situation that are lonely. its sad, but what else is there to do? i try to smile to the world, and wish and pray for to get a smile back. thats life. But am a good actor, because its not fun to "bother" someone with your issues,,specially in sweden

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