Thursday, July 31, 2014
First of all, Stina, how are you? - I'm ok. Thank you for caring. Life is v e r y intense at the moment with these little two monkeys, ehh, sorry, boys. Alexis comes in and out of different emotional and developing phases and trying to find himself as a bigger brother, a task he does not always like or appreciate. And Leon is just all over the place, touching things, moving around, cries often when we leave him alone in a room or put him down on the floor. We have a lot of cosy time together, but's hard work and constant work. No time for rest at all.
We haven't got our nanny yet, she is stuck in Russia and the progress is so slow, it drives me nuts. I need help for sure. M works a lot and some days I go insane. Others I'm trying to remind me that this is such a short and precious period of my life, one of the best probably and I really try to live here and now, nurture them with my love and constant presence and just take one hour at the time.
I find the hardest part to find out what to do every day? With the age difference, something that is not too complicated to get to, pack all things etc but that Alexis likes but Leon can be amused by also.
Describe Alexis and Leon? - Alexis completely and fully understands English, French and Swedish and talks a lot, mostly English and Swedish but the French is coming. He is normally a sweetheart but tries and test us many times per day. He has loads of energy, normal for small boys I've heard and even though you've played with him like crazy, he comes home and literally climbs on the walls, sofa, tables ... He loves cars and films and sleeps half of the night in my bed. He is sensitive, strong minded, loving, wants to help an be a part of everything we do.
Leon is a chubby little sunshine normally and crawl around the whole house, stairs and loves being next to Alexis who doesn't appreciate that very much, yet. So a couple of punches and fights every day is common. Leon want to be part of everything and cries if we leave him by himself. In South of France he was totally different and played a lot by himself, but since we got back home he changed.
How is the house coming up? - Well it's a big house so it takes time. We go room by room but a lot have happened since we bought it even though it's just as much left to do. We're waiting for our hallway to be ready with a glass stair coming up. I'm mostly focusing on the interior part and M does all things around. It's coming around nicely and I love it! Truly! My closet is the next project I'm waiting to be ready but it will probably take another 1-2 month until it's really there for all my things to live. Our kitchen chairs from Italy I also wait for, they've taken forever to arrive. We ordered and payed them in October last year ... I mean, don't even ask. Hate that company.
We want to build a pool eventually when the boys are not too small, if we still live here by then that is. Something tells me not.
When will you start working again? - I will tell you all about it soon! So excited for that change, it will be something I've never done before, combining motherhood with working! Can't wait but also feel sad to not have my complete freedom and all the time with the boys. Double emotions which I'm working on. I'm sure though it will feel like holiday working after being a stay at home mother for three and a half year!
I start in the mid September and as I said, will tell you more soon!
What do you want to get for this autumn, fashion wise? - Black wedges from Isabel Marant, new boots with a twist, the perfect boyfriend jeans, an awesome new cashmere coat, some lovely sweater ... But before, I have to rinse even more. I have too much of everything already. Don't like that feeling.
What is a promise you just did to yourself? - Taking at least 40 min for myself without the kids per day. starting today. Haven't done that ... ever I think. Also giving my spiritual averseness more time. Taking time for things that really matters, that I need for my inner wellness. Life is so hectic right know and there's so many things going on at the same time, I need to be fit in my body, mind and heart to cope with it all and stay strong and focused in it. I long for easy going evenings where I can just read a book or watch a film. Not happening right now.
What do you don't like with your life right now? - That I have literally no time, energy for my dearest friends. Even a phone call seems almost impossible. I long for dinners, cosy talks and a everyday life full with friends.
(pic from last wknd's country side lunch)