Thursday, September 25, 2014
Autumn in black'n mustard
It was raining already from the morning, but I dressed well and used my umbrella as my wingman and actually worked a full day (9am-5pm, which means leaving at 7.45am and arriving back at 8.10pm), just in time to say good night to our youngest.
It made me realise one big thing today.
No matter how much I love my job and in this passion for it, one can easily stay longer - but the childhood of my children will never come back and no matter how much I turn and twist it in a couple of years, it will never be the same as when they are so small and need you so unconditionaly. What I have is here and now, and I need to be with them as a mother just as much as I can, combining it with work.
Personally, working as I do partially, is just perfect. I see them 1.5h in the morning, go to work and come back in the early afternoon to spend that precious time with my two boys. It makes me a better mother to have some freedom and grown up time and they can play around with other kids. But the happiness in their faces when I'm arriving back home, nothing can compare it and nothing is worth more. It's a privilege we have, raising our children and even though I sometimes feel like I'm going bananas of frustration, the good times makes you forget the harder ones.
(old leather jacket, old skirt: Prada, handmade wool sweater: Zara, boots: Ferragamo & bag: Chloè)