Thursday, October 2, 2014

Alive

Dear readers, sorry for my lack of updates but since my man traveled to Switzerland a couple of days and the planned babysitter who we booked us to help me a little, got ill - well, it has been practically NO time for anything else then just taking care of the little ones and working there between.
Let's not go into details too much, but the days have been v e r y frustrating, tiring, intensive and not good for any of us. Two very small children need two grown ups, that's always my conclusion. It just doesn't work nicely else.
This period of time is also when there's so much sickness at kindergarden which they bring home and without sounding too pessimistic, I think I've got approximately 4h/sleep per night the last couple of days. Once again, it doesn't take much to feel like you're about to go insane. Especially not when you been waken up about six times per night and then have to stress the kids to kindergarden by myself in the morning and rush to work after. Phu.
On top of that I lost my voice once again which seems be a returning problem when my body just cries out for help.
But I survived ... hardly and feeling like I've been driven over by a tractor, but I did and M is back now.  My mood is hopefully changing back to normal soon. Just need to catch up on sleep and nice, calm and more relaxed days.

Talk soon!

23 comments:

  1. I only sleep 4 hours a night and every 4th day I am an absolute wreck, I'd go insane if I had to look after two small children as well.
    Loving your hair, it makes me want a blunt cut.

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  2. Dags för M att flytta hem. Karriären kan inte gå före din hälsa. En familj pajar om mamma inte mår bra. None of my business, men jag har sett två vänner mer eller mindre blivit utbrända med rätt grava hälsoproblem som följd och de har haft det som du, även de med brittiska/franska män med lite "för" välbetalda jobb och höga krav på stimulerande arbete/arbetsgivare vilket gjort hela familjen tull fånge i mannens framgång och det blivit ett oerhört svårt beslut att få mannen att ge upp det. Och det är så fel och sorgligt att inget kvinnan måste blI SJUK för att tas på allvar. Hamna inte där kära du!

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    1. Dear Katti, if life would be that easy. He has tried to get so many jobs in Sweden, if you only new. But swedes are a little bit afraid of "career men" from Switzerland (and other countries) and he doesn't talk Swedish and the five other languages that he speaks fluently doesn't seem to attract, not even in full English speaking companies. He is so thought after in the rest of the world but Sweden is not ready for foreigners, it's widely known thought Europe how hard Sweden is to employee non native Swedish people that does not talk Swedish. They rather hire a less experienced person from a nice city like Lund.
      So he is doing all he can, believe me. But until then, of course he needs to be where there's possibilities! We would both be super happy if he could get his career going over here!

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    2. Thank you for your reply! Wish you all the best and good luck to M finndig a really great job in Swe!

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  3. Beloved Stina- I pray that a harmonious rhythm will come your way and without knowing so much about your life- I just finish of by saying this: Vad gör det om 100 år när allting kommer kring? (When all comes around- what does it matter in 100 of years) and leave it to you to translate it as you see fit. Sending you love, peace, and 5 minutes of pure exhales.

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    1. True dear but I'm completely exhausted!

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  4. This is hard. Managing family and career is never easy. Add lack of sleep and this makes everything a few degrees worse. Glad to hear M is back home. This should improve everything for everyone.
    Susan

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  5. I hope you can get lots of rest this weekend, what a week you've had. But you are still looking beautiful and I adore this outfit.

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  6. I am in a similar situation: a 4 old child who needs an eternity to be ready for kindergarden, a job which cannot wait and NO VOICE. Horrible. You're not alone :-)

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  7. Good to hear from you, Stina. I could sleep, sleep, sleep. Just the absolute best thing. (besides good food) Especially now that its autumn and the sun rises later and later.

    What helped me to get some more sleep this week was: we just updated our bed to a more softer version. My husband took our duvet (5 pieces) to a seamstress, who made them into two extra soft mattresses, with more padding inside. That makes it, a total of, what, 3-4 matresses. Now we have one really giant, soft and fluffy bed:) Like a luxury hotel room at home. Just something that worked for us.

    Take care of yourself, and family, Stina.

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    1. Wow, good advice! Lovely for you! My problem is more a little boy who comes into my bed at night and doesn't wanna fall back to sleep ...

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  8. Stina, hvor er din fine grønne genser fra??
    :-)

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  9. Good that you are not alone anymore!

    I got panic attacks when my daughters were small (they have one year age difference) . Every time when my husband was in few days work trip it happen --- in the first evening. It was my youngest daughters very demanding cry what always did start it. It was awful. It took long time for me to realize why it happen and I felt very bad mother for long time. I didn't tell for anybody before I really had to. Even now many years after when my youngest one is crying in a certain way it makes me feel very awful.

    Take some rest Stina and give enough time for your self. Nowadays world is such that it don't give rest for you if you don't take it by your self.



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    1. I completely understand, I don't get panic attacks but i do have my low periods. When I feel completely blue, I take the kids and do something and that always makes me in a better mood!

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  10. You have the same sweater than Sofie Fahrman; känner du varandra?

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    1. I do? Ok, No but I'm a very good friend with her sister Frida.

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  11. I try again.... Will ritw fron the fix computer you do not receive here
    Hugs. Uta

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  12. My son gets sick from kindy all the time and it really is hard but they out grow it eventually! Hope you feel better. I only sleep 4 hours a night ( if that) and you just get used to it. I actually get a lot done in the middle of the night. xxx

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