Combining a great career with motherhood and a man who is often away, yes, it's absolutely tiring and not until now have I realised how much I actually struggle. When you work hard and coming home to two very needing children and everything else that belongs to a family life, it can really take the best out of you just because you try so hard to give all you can to each one of the areas, either it's a patient or my children. But since I started working half a year ago now, I have almost stopped exciting myself, there's really no time for Stina, not even 30min in the weekends because I always want to be with my boys (and my man if he is at home) whenever I'm not at work. I completely dedicate myself to them and always feel guilty when leaving them away to kindergarden for me to be able to work. I know they love it, but even so, I question the fact that someone else is taking care of my own children so many hours per day, I really think it's me who should do it more even though I also love it because taking care of two small children are a full time job itself.
This concern is especially when thinking about Leon, since Alexis had me at home for almost three years. I feel like I'm missing so much and I want to be more with my youngest, to give him the same sort of start in life.
So from next week I'll do some changes in my work scheme. I've been thinking about this for a long time and the more I think about it, the more it makes sense. Life is really here and now and I want to be as present as I possible can for my children.
So all new and old patient, bare with me, it will be harder to find appointments but just be out in good time when you book yourself and I'm sure you will hardly notice any difference!
Have a lovely Saturday and I just can't wait for this change that starts next week!